He’s going to leave.
He had decided that the night before when he and Olivia broke up. She had given him a disbelieving laugh when he told her they just weren’t right together and spouted off something about maturity, but he was already walking away and couldn’t hear the half of it. It wasn’t that he was trying to be rude, he just didn’t care anymore. Lost in a tidal wave of bullshit, his friends falling apart, hating college (and near failing because he couldn’t focus on something he couldn’t stand), his dad never home, and the last straw was Rae. Rae who didn’t want him, didn’t really want to be his friend. He’d never had a girl stomp him the way she had, had never given one the chance if was honest, and he while he loved her (that had come as a gasping revelation when Olivia had tried to unbutton his pants and he found himself limp and embarrassed that the only kiss he could harden under belonged to a girl who avoided him like he had leprosy), he didn’t much like the feeling loving her brought. A sort of hollow drum feeling in the middle of him that only filled with ache and dread lately.
He’s not sure why he’s giving her another chance to crush him (because she will). It’s something sick and twisted and it’s curling up his guts, slinking into his heart, whispering that he can’t leave with his heart. Not much left anyway. Might as well finish the job. And the thing inside of him fights a smile when she calls him mate because it crumbles him just a little and one more good blow with end it all and he’ll run away so fast that no one will even know he’s slipped out of their lives.
“I’m thinking about moving away. Because I’ve got no other reason to stay, have I?” There’s the tang of stomach acid on his tongue and he’s waiting, not breathing, for her to deliver the knock out. A swift no or maybe she’ll drag it out. But she’s silent and it’s not what he wanted. He wanted finality. He wanted to be mad at her. He wanted to leave and hate her for the rest of his life and he can’t do anything with silence.
“You have me, Finn.” She shrugs a little, hands twisting in her lap.
“Do I? It doesn’t feel that way.”
“I know,” she nods, looking away. “I don’t feel like I have me most of the time, either… but I’m going to try. I’ve been a really shit person lately. Really shit and it’s time for me to stop. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, really. I just need to… is there any way I can make you stay?”
He doesn’t know if he should take the bait. It’s not the first time he’s floundered around her (and he suspects it won’t be the last) so he takes his time in answering and she doesn’t rush him. “Could we stop lying to each other?”
Her laugh tamps down the twisting in his stomach. “Yeah, I think that would be a good start.”
“So… what’s going on with you?”
She shakes her head. “Let’s talk about you first, for once. Why are you miserable?”
The words I missed you are on the tip of his tongue. It’s true, he did miss her. A lot. But the end of their relationship had only been the last straw in a bundle that sat on his chest. If they were going for honesty, he might as well start at the beginning. “My mum left when I was 8.”
(Finn finds out Rae is the best listener in the world and Rae will discover they are more alike than she ever imagined and that high pedestal she had him on sinks down until they are on equal footing and she can kiss him senseless, the way he deserved to be kissed.)
That’s what happened on the show. No party and no drunken assholes and certainly NO LIAM.
can we all just pretend this atually happened
WE CAN PRETEND, BUT IT’S BULLSHIT, EVERYTHING IS BULLSHIT.
OH MY GOD. WHOEVER DID THIS: THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.
That’s how that scene went and no one can convince me otherwise.
I might be one if the few who saw this episode with thrill and excitement about what’s coming. I can say now I see where this is going and episode 5 was my favorite.
I see some can’t relate to Rae at this point, but I’m at the other side, and episode 6 will probably going to hit on the bruises…
Oh, I want to hear where you think it’s going! :D
Teen Wolf AU à la 10 Things I Hate About You: In which Isaac wants to date Cora, but she isn’t allowed to go out with anyone until her older brother Derek, who is well known in school for his less than stellar social skills and nonexistent interest in dating, has found someone as well. So they develop a plan to pay someone - Stiles Stilinski, to be precise - to take Derek out. None of them really expected it to work, and much less for Derek and Stiles to actually fall in love with each other…
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There better be Bidwell, Emu brigade have got their eye on you…..
I have so much to do, no time to do it and the only thing that makes me keep holding on is that this weekend is a long weekend.
teen wolf crossovers :: [brooklyn 99]
the agents hale. the two hardest agents, derek and laura, that always manage to show up when the big federal messes come into town.
Despite that I’m devastated with a lot of things that happened in Ep.5, I’ve decided to make a list of things I did enjoy and focus on those with the hope that everything will turn around in the next episode. In no particular order:
- We got to see the gang together in the beginning
- Finn wanted…
I’m hanging on to this post until next Monday. Let’s not lose hope
I NEED A DOWNLOAD LINK NOW!!!
Okay fuck this, the audio is horrible and it stops every five minutes. I’ll watch it later…
The livestream is so bad i can’t watch properly :((((((
i’m so afraid of marriage like what if you marry someone and like have kids with them and then they decide they don’t love you anymore or something idk man but that shit is scary
And now Teen Wolf will revive me just to kill me again… Well, fuck.